June 5, 2010

HAven't blogged for so long. It's cus I haven't been on the computer for the rest of the week. There's nothing really special about today. Just wanted to to update my blog after so long because I get the chance to go on the computer now. So ever since yesterday I've been playing OMGPOP LOL. It's really fun. So add me up guys and let's play : keusebio09. The whole week was crazy and yeah. My tumblr is pretty updated and I haven't done Outfit of the Days because I didn't get to use my camera and I couldn't find my memory card. So I'm going to try to update more on outfit of the days because seriously, it's dead right now and plus it's almost end of the year so I better start blogging about my days and I better take hella lots of pictures. Hopefully I do get the chance to blog everyday because it's going to be interesting. Next, next week I might not go on as much because of exams but I'm going to try. Athletic Banquet this Friday, excited and sad because it's our last one ):
so cont. this later. Doing nothing but homework today and pwn Darren at OMGPOP and practice playing Dinglepop so I can beat Jecelyn (:

what's wrong with my life?

everything is just fucked up ! I am sick and tired of all this shit coming up. I ignore it but whenevr I do and let it pass by, it gets worse. It's so frustrating !

you're a bitch !

did you know that?! Well, yeah I hope you do. I don't know what your problem is with me. Your my mom and I never expected moms to be like you. I don't even know how it is to actually have a mom because mine's been terrible from the start. I've had enough and trust me, I am DONE! If I could, I would..cut you out of my life right now. Keep this up and I'm telling you right now, you're going to end up having your wish come true..to not have a daughter like me. That means I'll be out of your life and you'll be out of mine. I'll make you we both don't know each other. You don't know how much I've been wanting that motherly love I see my friends get from their friends. You just don't have that. You always point out my flaws and just wait til I mess up. You hear and see nothing but me. I guess you're never going to stop til I'm gone. Well, guess what? I'm gone in three more years. Out of your fucking house and your fucking life. Thanks for giving life to me MOM, I appreciate it. But really, you didn't have to waste all that blood and go through so much pain for such a MESS UP, as you always call me.

This is my for sure evening dress for my grade 9 farewell. I like the pink one but this is the dress I wanted from the start, this is exactly the one I pictured in my head and I am glad I got it. So the story behind this dress? I first saw this gorgeous royal blue dress and I loved it. I tried it on and it fit me perfectly. But as I finished and walked, I saw this purple dress and I instantly fell in love but when I tried it on, it was so big on me. Then I tried on a smaller size cus I really want it, but it was still too big. So my dad told me to give it up but I told him I'll just get it and get it tailored because I really, really wanted it. As i was going to the cashier, money ready I went to the suit aisle and saw another one 5 sizes smaller and I grabbed it and ran to the change room. It fit me perfectly and I got it.

look what I found from Tumblr

september 25 2009

woow. what a very exhausting week. and havent blogged for a really long time. just didnt really have the time. anyways, monday was ...hmm hard to remember all i know is that it's boring except for lunch time. tuesday, started making posters for linda's campaign and argued with aaron because he gave me a sticker that says "vote for aaron dela pena" then i changed it to "linda duch", he said i made it worse -_-, was that even on tuesday? then wednesday cross country meet, i was second last ): out of like 22 girls idk what happened to the person behind me she walked all the way, at least i didnt walk.. i juts didnt run really fast.... thursday was ok we were supposed to go to valuelots with vincent because he wants the chocolate straws that he stole from my brother but he bailed on us, terry fox run after didnt really run or walk cus i had to take pics, yeah that was fun. friday ran in the morning then tripped at the beggining so now my left leg hurts ): i cant even walk properly now, not my fault im not coordinated and i lack a lot of balance. very busy during the weekend cus of homework and homework and other assignments i need to catch up on and campaign stuff. picture day on monday, start of election week and cross country meet - i hope my leg is better by that time. at least we dont have to run that early and i dont have to wake up early. sorry im boring, i just had to write something right now then do all my homework so i can cross things off my to-do list. -_- k peace, nighty nights even though its early watch out for gossip girl and vampire diaries (it's da shit) take care god bless.

I just find it so funny how I hated him before and how I was against his campaign. I like remembering how it was when we were friends. it was great having him as a friend and a boyfriend. We were really close back then and we'd always make fun of each other, we still do now. Now, it's like our friendship before but better.

FAQ

• My name is Alyza Karen Eusebio but I go by Karen even though I've been called Alyza from grade 3 to 6, my parents just called me Karen when I was a kid and I grew from it and now I get really pissed when someone calls me Alyza because I don't know, I just don't like it.
• I am currently 15 years old and I just turned 15 this May. One more year and I get to drive !
• I am full Filipino, yet somehow part Spanish because of my great, great grandparents but they don't count so I guess I'm full flip. I am brown and proud to be brown. I have really dark brown eyes that they're almost black but I guess it depends because they get lighter during Summer and darker when it's Winter.
• I live in Winnipeg and yes it I am Canadian. I live in an igloo with my mom, dad and brother and I have a penguin named Bobo and he's 2 years old, I used to have a hamster named Skittles but he recently just died and I am planning on getting a polar bear but my parents think it's not a good idea because I'm not responsible enough. It is a very cold city but I love it even though right now the weather is being bipolar.
  
• I go to a middle school still even though I am in grade 9 and I know grade 9 is considered as high school, it depends on the school. Some people decide to move to a high school in grade 9, I chose to stay at my school so I can graduate there and I want to stay at my school as long as possible because I love it so much. There's about only a month left from school and then it's time to move to the bigger, real world called high school.
• I am happily taken by Aaron Dela Pena and we've been going out for 4 months now and it's been a very successful relationship.
• I don't have any athletic abilities and I'm just not a sports person. I can play volleyball and basketball like I'm okay at it and I know how but I'm just not really good at it, I don't think I'm good enough to join my school's team and I'm scared I'll just get cut or whatever. I am not a runner either but I still try to. I don't like running fast, I'm a distance runner...I can run far distance and keep a pace but a really slow one. I am in marathon for the first time. So I'm not good at running but I practice to improve. I am not a track and field person either, as I said I don't like running fast so I'm definitely a track person but I am kind of a field person. I like shot put and discuss but I am not very good at it like I'm okay but not VERY good.
• I am a lazy yet hard working student. I don't know if that makes sense or not but I procrastinate a lot but I still get my work done and well. I get pretty good grades since I do my homework and it's really easy to get good grades, like you don't have to be really smart. All you have to do is do your homework all the time and pay attention in class. But right now, I can't keep a consistent grade because I've been procrastinating like crazy but I'm starting to get back on track so I can be ready for exams and bring my marks back up again.
• I am a very talkative person like you can literally hear my voice from across the hall and just know that that's Karen. I tend to talk a lot in class too like people who sit with me won't get their work done because I just talk to them non-step. I don't know, I just can't stay quiet. I know I give my teachers and parents headaches because I always talk to them and tell and ask them the randomest, stupidest things ever but I don't really care. I'd rather talk a lot than be silent. Trust me guys, you'll miss my voice when I become silent.
• I like being busy like I don't like staying home on weekends or going straight home after school or not having anything to do. I just don't like being bored. I am very active at school like I'd go to school early for marathon practices or just cause or even for math help when I have an upcoming math test or I just really don't get something. That was before though, I started sleeping in and being late because no one wakes me up at home and I've just gotten lazy. Since I'm not really in sports I became a scorekeeper so I can still be involved and it gets me out of the house on weekends and occasionally after schools and it's an easy way to make money. At lunch time, either I have choir or I'm with my friends or I stay in the school helping out my teacher or my classmates. After schools, I either have some sort of practice or I go to a friend's house or hang out at my boyfriend's house with a bunch of friends, go to the mall with friends or have friends over at my house then I do homework and what not after they leave. I just don't like being bored at home.
  
• I am a very gullible person. I'll believe the stupidest things ever it's not even funny, well to most of my friends it is.
  
• I am very friendly and outgoing although some think I'm a snob and is hard to approach. Trust me, I am very easy to approach like if you come to me and say "hi" I'll say "hi" back and in a matter of minutes I'll be talking to you about all these crazy things. It's easy for me to talk to people and I just love meeting new people and making new friends.
• I can't say I'm nice or mean because it varies. To some I am super nice and to some I'm just a total bitch. I know I sound two-faced but I just really treat others the way they treat me. So, if you're not nice to me and you treat me like crap then I'll do the same for you but if you're nice to me then I'll be nice to you.
  
• I am very weird. I will do the craziest, weirdest things ever and not care because that's who I am. I'd rather be weird than normal. I like having a crazy life and not a boring, simple one. I'm perfectly fine with being weird, it's something you can't really hide. I am just different, I'd like weird things that people might not like.
• I dislike milk and strawberries. Why milk? Because when I was a kid, I used to be obsessed with milk like I'd drink it all the time then my grandparents thought that I should stop because it's become so bad like I'd drink nothing but milk so they stopped me from drinking it. So after that, whenever I drink milk I feel like puking because it just tasted so gross. I can't stand it, like I'd drink it but I just won't be able to swallow it. Why strawberries? I honestly don't know the reason to why I dislike strawberries. They're so pretty and they smell so good but taste wise, I just never liked it especially eating strawberries by itself. It is disgusting. So as you can see, I am a very picky person.
  
• I am very opinionated. It's like I have an opinion for EVERYTHING. I will always have something to say about a certain issue.
• I speak my mind. If I have something to say, I'll say it. If something is bothering me, I'd state it. I just don't like keeping things in my mind because I feel like it's just going to be another thought wasted and left unsaid or something. If I don't like something or someone, I'll say I don't like that thing or that person. I am very honest and I'm the type to tell you what's wrong if there is something wrong.
• I give pretty good advice and I love helping my friends with their problems. I help them by putting myself in their position and just imagining how it may be for them. I know I won't know it is exactly for them but I will try to help them. I know at times that I am not the best friend out there because I can't help all of my friends but I try to and even if I can't give advice I still try to be there for them and be an ear to listen and a shoulder to cry on.
• I am an upbeat person. I am always happy. I will be smiling no matter how bad my day's been going. I just like thinking positively and to not waste time worrying and being unhappy.
• I am a person full of fears, if you must say. I am afraid of a lot of things. I am scared of EVERY bug except for lady bugs. I will scream and run away when I see one little bug in front of me. I am afraid of ghosts even though lots of you may think they're not real. I am scared of thunder. I am scared of heights, I just feel like it's going to be the cause of my death. I am afraid of loud, scary sounds even though I am a loud person. I'm scared of sirens, alarms or just anything that's loud and scary. I am afraid of the dark, I can't stand being in the dark and I feel like there will be someone to kill me when I'm in the dark..I'll just start crying and screaming if you leave me in a dark room. I am afraid of being alone and silence because when I was a kid, I use to get a lot of nightmares where I'm in this really dark room alone and it was just quiet and it was dark and I felt like I'm going nowhere, every once in a while there will be this unknown sound starting off really quiet then it will get really loud and at times it felt like it's going near me.
  
• I love scary stories and movies. Even though it makes me not sleep for months, I love watching it or reading about scary stories. They're just so interesting and no matter how scary it is I can't help but want to watch it.

cont. later

GROW HAIR ! GROW!!

I actually want to get my hair layered again, like I know it's layered already but i want it more layered because all I have right now is short hair all straight then short layers, I want my bangs to grow too, they're too short and I don't like short bangs, I want my long-side swept bangs back ); I kind of want long layered hair again. I miss it. I'm going to keep my hair short for awhile just for the summer, then grow it long again. My hair grows pretty fast, especially my long layers because I got a haircut about 2 weeks ago and then I couldn't put most of my hair in a pony tail, like there will be like short hairs sticking out from the bottom but now I can tie everything except for short layers because they're just that short. I'm so weird =/ I'm blogging about my hair. See, I'm so uninteresting. Anyways, I need suggestion on how to do my hair for my grade 9 farewell, so I need help ! D: I don't know what will work great on short hair like mine, well not short, it's like shoulder length.